So, I crush on guys fairly easily. This is usually not something I try to hide, but I do hold myself back from gushing non-stop about whoever that not-so-lucky guy is. It's extremely irrational and my imagination is too overactive for my own good.

All this to say, my crush bug has bitten again. *sigh* I'm actually doing a fairly good job of restraining myself I'd like to think. This time, instead of embracing my non-realistic fantasies I've been stopping myself and praying. Although this is difficult and often times not what I'd rather do, I'm really learning a lot from it. God is using this uncomfortable and emotional situation and helping me grow which is what I want more than anything. But my hope dies slowly and I can't help imagining how a relationship could turn out between us. It probably won't. I have confidence that if it doesn't though, God has an even better guy for me or an even better opportunity single that I wouldn't be able to do if I was tied down. Still hard though.

Otherwise, life is pretty normal here. Oh yeah, "here" is now Eastern Illinois University. This is my first semester here, and it's now going to close in 3 weeks. It's been fabulous I've grown so much, learned so much and lived a life I'm really happy of. The semi-independence of being away from parents yet still having people provide you with food and money and instructions is ingenious. Thank you creators of college. I'm really bummed that my stay is 2 years short but I'm glad to be here.

And now, to end this post with a joke:

Neon walks into a bar,
the bartender says: "We don't serve noble gasses here!"
Neon doesn't react.

=D