Oh.Em.Gee.

You must be thinking to yourself: "She's blogging TWICE in ONE WEEK. Oh my gosh." Wait. Who am I kidding? I'm the only person who reads my own blog. Haha, well I'm still thinking it.
So, today I'm going to blog about hair. More specifically how much I love it when my hair gets played with. I'm not talking affectionate stroking, nope, I mean brushing/braiding/curling/straightening. The whole she-bang! And I know I'm not alone in this love because in 3rd grade all the girls used to line up and play with the hair of the person in front of them. No joke, it sounds kinda weird when I type it all out...I blame Colorado. But seriously, it's such an amazing feeling, the human scalp is such a sensitive area and feeling the gentle tugging of someone pulling through your hair is magnificent. And that is why I subject my hair to styling by a 6 year old which always ends in frizz. (And I look like a GREAT babysitter who's willing to play anything with a kid (which is true regardless))
OK, I just had the urge to say "XOXO Gossip Girl" for my ending to this...I'm am officially an addict >.< <-- Stupid computer this is not HTML, it's a frickin' FACE!

Just FYI

I need to watch Phantom of the Opera VERY soon. The first time I attempted to watch it I fell asleep *blushes* But seriously? The music in the movie ROCKS. MY. WORLD. Any man wishing to win my heart can serenade me with Music of the Night any day *sigh* Gerard Butler is so dreamy. I mean 1) He is SO attractive for a man who's almost as old as my father. 2) Accent. Need I say more? 3) And last but defffffffinitely not least, he has the voice of a hot accented ANGEL. Seriously though, all gushing aside. Men out there, don't be discouraged if you would like to win my affections I will not hold you to the standard of hot musical Scottish men...I may hold you to the musical standard though ;). I'm not going to worry though, at this point in time I don't think I have any suitors to disappoint. So I'm just gonna go listen and look at Gerard some more :-D

Love, love, love

So, I've noticed that whenever my friends around me get to the point where they're pursuing and being pursued it really brings me down. I'm unbelievably happen for them, no doubt about that, but sometimes I get this irrational sadness and jealousy. It's really quite annoying. But I get into this unhealthy mentality of "Why do they get a boyfriend? They've already had their first boyfriend, isn't my turn now? What do they have that I don't? Why am I so terrible at this whole love/dating/relationship thing?" I've been feeling this way today, and although it's not a new emotion for me, not even close it has been a very long time since I've felt this way. Ever since my senior year I've been really good with my self-esteem and generally being happy with my life. This old and petty emotion totally caught me off guard. I'm fully aware that I'm not in the spiritual mindset and lifestyle that is necessary for the type of relationship I'm looking for, but sometimes it's just nice to be recognized and let known that you're desirable you know? Although, this isn't where one's self-worth should come from so I suppose it's just an ideal I haven't dropped from high school.

Supremely. Irked.

Right now, at the very moment I feel like the people I'm surrounded by have fully, completely and utterly let me down, no, actually I feel like they dropped me from a 10 story building. Of course there are a lot of exceptions to this too, but there are certain people that just seem to taint my entire perspective. Back to the letting down part. I would like to think I try fairly hard to be a good friend and family member, yes I mess up and yes sometimes I'm not 100% but at least I'm attempting something!! Because of that, the people that let me down really make me mad. I mean REALLY. I'm on the verge of just exploding with tears of anger and frustration and hurt. To top it off, I feel like they all let me down around the same time, I'm getting dropped off a 1o story building over and over and over and over.

Woooow

Well, wow! It seems that I've totally forgotten about this thing. Well I sure do feel sheepish...Anyway, it's may now and my last 5 months have been pretty monotonous. I babysit some days and the others are spent being lazy and trying to not be :). Except for Tuesday nights, that became jamie's and my Veronica Mars night, boy do I LOVE that show. I don't really have much else to say, but as of right now it seems my summer is going to be pretty busy and pretty awesome. I'll let you know how it goes ;)