Rota

Broken by Lifehouse is my theme song lately. As everyone is leaving for college I'm feeling some of the same feelings I did last summer, yet they're completely different. Until tonight I haven't really been upset, but listening to this song just brings out those sad feelings that I've been trying to swallow. I know I'll end up where I'm suppose to be no matter what path I take, but it's so hard right now because I don't want any of this. I don't want to be living at home and I wish I could afford a regular 4-year college, a "big girl" college, a "real" college and a "real" expirience to go with it. My school is great - one of the top in the country, but it's not where I want to be. So, although I'm completely 100% excited for my friends and am so happy they're going where they want to, It's still so sad to see them leave along with seeing them go where they want to so seemingly easy. Everything will be ok in the end, but for now " I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts."