crash and burn

Oh, did you hear that sound? Yeah, that was my self-control utterly failing again. The weird part though was when I finally gave in to my crush the very same instant he was off limits. Very funny God... So I'm going through this dilemma. For the first time I really enjoy talking to a friend and I don't ever want to stop. We have great give and take and it's enjoyable. Although I have developed feelings for this person, I'm conflicted about how much I can enjoy being in his company just as friends. I feel like I should be able to spend hours talking and laughing with someone who's just a friend and not only with someone you're romantic with. But, the amount of flirting that takes place is humongous and if he's taken that's not ok. As a girl I would not want the person I was dating to be that flirty with another girl and therefore I think whatever kind of friendship or what not we had going has come to it's untimely end. Now I'm just trying to get past it. It shocks me how much it hurts to realize that. Stupid heart with your stupid girly emotions.

On another note, I'm officially home and I'm already ready to go back *sigh* I hope the entire summer isn't this bleak. :/

"We're afraid to care too much for fear that the other person does not care at all."