Happiness

I'm such a giant extrovert. Yesterday and Today were spent in the company of really great friends and I am so happy. I get so much energy when I'm with the people I love. I feel loved in return and I laugh and I hug and I sing and I feel completely free to be myself. Lately I've been thinking about the future and what I'd like to have happen. I really do hope I can get married someday. I worry though as well. For example, if I stay the way I am being pregnant and having children could be dangerous for both people and there's just so many obstacles that I really don't think any man would want to overcome. If I'm being honest with myself I wouldn't want to make the effort. I think I'm hard to love :/ BUT if my friends make the effort to deal with my quirks and be there for me, who knows? I can't put a limit on what God can do. I have faith that however my future turns out, I will be filled with joy and a love for my father.