Wednesday, December 26, 2012

I'm starting to think that moving back home was a bad idea. After leaving for school life became absolutely wonderful and when my dad asked me if I was going to move back home after graduating I thought he had lost his mind. I guess two years away was enough to make all the awful fights from my first two years of college significantly dimmer. Unfortunately nothing has changed. Same old story. Dad wants girl to be indentured servant, girl wants to be independent, Dad says rent or work for him, girl is broke (now with $17,000 in school loan debt) Girl feels trapped, alone. Learned helplessness is beginning to set in. I don't feel like I have a family anymore. My dad thinks all I want to do is sit around and do nothing, and while yes, that is the case sometimes (who doesn't want a break now and again?) it is not even close to always being true. I want to get a job and work possibly full time starting in January but at the same time I want to be refreshed for grad school. Living at home mentally wears me down and breaks me. I'm at the point where I'd rather be financially broke than mentally. Living at home sucks. I want to go back to school.

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