Bumps in the Road

I've FINALLY gotten to a good spot again. My heart is my own again and I've decided to give it to God who's the only man who can keep it safe. But, I keep running into the desire to be loved by a guy here in person. I know this is normal but it's difficult to stay strong and ignore the crushes I feel forming on guys or not acting in a way so that guys affirm my worth and beauty by giving me attention. I really, really want to like someone and have them like me back and just plain be in LOVE. I know that's not the right place to look though. I keep thinking I'm seeking God for the fulfillment of those desires but they're not going away. I'm also struggling with the need and desire to be affirmed by guys. I caught myself desperately wanting a guy to want to sit next to me, to compliment me in any way, to WANT me and find me breathtakingly gorgeous and want to full out pursue me. I know these feelings are natural, but I don't think it's right to act on them and try to get that affirmation. But, I don't know how else to get it either and it's leaving me frustrated and depressed. I'm trying to live my life in a way that's pleasing to God and have him fulfill these desires but it's not working and maybe I'm just not doing it right. The bottom line is I feel alone and empty and just sad. All I know to do at this point is to tell God about it and give it to him.