CRAP

crapcrapcrapcrapcrapcrapCRAP!

I was in a good place and then I started thinking too much again. I'm in the early stages of a crush and I need to get back out somehow. I know he's not interested so I think

I need to just stay friends with him but not hang out any more than we were before my crush flared up.

I need to keep myself in check when I'm around him and not look too much into his actions.

I need to remember that I can accept the affirmation and attention from him, but that doesn't mean I need to fall head over heels for him.

I need to remember he just wants to be friends

I need to remember that God is in control of this and just because this one guy isn't interested at the moment doesn't mean no one is ever going to be.

I need to remember to be patient, stuff like this takes a lot of time. A LOT of it.

I need to remember that I am beautiful, smart and funny, that a guy would be lucky to have me and that I have worth.

I need to realize the value of having a friend I'm not crushing on

I need to just live life in the most God pleasing way possible, have fun and feel good about myself.

I need to remember that it's ok to do nice things to show people how I feel, I just can't have any expectations in return.

I don't need this guy or any guy. I'm not lonely - I have a lot of really great friends.

Someday I WILL get to cuddle, hold hands and kiss. SOMEDAY.